My Own Worst Enemy
So today I was laying on my bed, sucking down a twinkie, watching some wonderfully awful court tv show, and thinking about all the stuff I need to do that I am not currently doing. Lets make a list:
1. Homework
2. Laundry
3. Update my Blog
4. Clean my Room
5. Stop Eating the Twinkie
6.Work out
Ok, yeah that pretty much covers it. Now that is kind of alot of responsibilities that I have clearly put off. For some reason this week, I have had no motivation to do anything at all. I haven’t even wanted to get out of bed in the morning. Just going about my day took more effort than doing all the things above did about a month ago.
So why is that?
Here is my answer: I need to stop being such a baby and feeling sorry for myself.
Sure, I have had a pretty crappy week. I lost all my friends and am currently being harrassed for five hours a day. I have to work at a crappy job where scenile old people yell at me that their coffee is cold. My car broke down.Not a single boy asked me to prom yet. Oh and Steve Pavlina banned me from his forum 
. Not that I will get into that.
But I have been going around all week feeling sorry for myself. I don’t think I have genuinely smiled all week. Being negative is not helping me at all and only feels good in the short term. I am not changing a thing. Instead of being sullen because some girls are being mean to me, I could have been well on the way of making a few new friends.
I refuse to be one of those losers that blame everyone and everything else for their problem. I am a huge believer that your attitude is directly proportionate to your own happiness. I believe it, but do not always live it. So this weekend I am working on my outlook and am going to be back to my old peppy self! Oh and I dyed my hair blonde. For no particular reason. But maybe it will help. Blondes are supposed to have more fun right?