So I really messed up
This weekend I went to a party and indulged in some adult beverages. Which I really rarely do but that party was a little boring and I caved. I had a good time but I made a huge mistake. Someone asked me about my friend that I haven’t been getting along with too well and I said some pretty rude things about her apparently. (I say apparently because I can’t remember saying these things).
I won’t go into what I said but it was totally out of line even though it was true. Even though she was not being a good friend I should never had said that. Someone told her about what I said and now she is very angry at me. None of my other friends will talk to me and I ate lunch alone today. I apologized and there is really nothing else I can do. So here is what I learned about this situation:
1. There is a reason that I don’t drink often
Drinking makes me say stupid things. Usually mean. And the hangover is not worth it.
2. If I have a problem with someone I should tell them about it
I never told her how she was bothering me and it came out when I was drinking. If I had said something to her I might not have said those things and spared her feelings.
3. High School is a fickle place
I was a little surprised that no one would talk to me. I know it will pass but it kind of sucks.
4. I am kind of glad that I am not friends with the girl that I insulted anymore
I feel alot lighter and more free because I am not weighed down by this toxic friendship. I really wish that I had ended it on better terms though.
5. I am not perfect
I really messed up with this. I sometimes tend to overlook my faults. It is humbling.
Sam if you are reading this. Which I highly doubt you are because you don’t even know I have this blog….I am sorry.
Awwwwh, well, everyone makes mistakes, big and small, you shouldn’t feel too bad about it.
Atleast it feels as though it was worth it, not being her friend anymore, right? :3
And it’s understandable that you were drunk, it happens. Though I don’t drink and I’ve never even tried, I still know that you were acting due to the drink.
Things like that happen to everyone at times.
You apologized, not much more you can do.
Be well !